Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Thursday, February 08, 2007


Well I've been in Jacksonville, FL again to see my dad at the Mayo Clinic. He had an operation that has never been done before. My brother, Ben and I went to support dad... and my mom, who would be there alone. Ben and I were very surprised to find that she had the support of a church that she has visited only a few months. These people were there with her alot. They would come to the hospital and sit for hours with her in the waiting room. We must have met at least 20 or more people from that church. The Lord is good to us! Ben and I were there for 5 days. When we left, dad was still in ICU. They are keeping him sedated so that he doesn't pull out the ventilator.

Going through all of this, has caused me to start thinking about how we see good and bad. Then my mind went to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. The knowledge of good and evil was passed to us through the generations. We as people living on the earth see things in terms of good things and bad things. But somethimes what we see as good, can be bad. Like when Judas kissed Jesus. A kiss is normally a good thing, but in this case it was betrayal. Betrayal is a bad thing, but in this case it was a good thing, because it was the Lord's plan. It's all so confusing. But, looking through the Lord's eyes causes us to see things in their proper perspective. Sometimes there are moments when we can't see through the Lord's eyes. We are just too close to what's going on. These are the times when we let go and rest in Him, and the Lord in us takes over through faith. He is that faith. He is leaking out of us at that moment. I noticed that everytime Jesus healed someone, He always told them that it was because of their faith. Those that were healed had come to the bottom and let go of control. They were giving control to the Lord.

So Lord, here's control. I hope that in all things in my life, you have control. I understand that I am not perfect, and that I will take control again and again. But, remind me again and again, that I want you in control.